Friday, December 29, 2006
Hey yayat..Many tings hapen..hey2..change of ma blog..how do u find it? well..did all by maself.. hehek.. luk much beta.. love it!! muacks!!Hey..i got 2 noe dis guy..by e name of zai..well..motive aku..cume nk uat kwn..tup2..dea dah terpaot kat aku..here..take a luk wad he text me.. "Dis gd nyte ms cum wif a confession...Frankly speakin actuali i reali m attracted 2 u as u r reali e gurl of my type.. & lots more"
hm..i dun wana break his hart nor mine..i've enuf.. juz wan b loyal w u noe hu..i still him.. i mean..no1 stand a chance to take up his place in ma heart..evn there is..still dey wun stand a chances to win bck my hart..its w him.. my pwecious saiful.. hm..ku tknk ar.. tknk pisah dgn dea.. ku syg dea...syg sesgt..
susah...niat nk uat kwn..kwn rapat.. but i dun wan him 2 treat me u noe..special.. i only cn see him as my best buddy..ntg much..but his waiting 4 my presence.. evn though we use to meet up n haf sum fun.now.i cant do dat..i mean its lyk..afta e confession he made 2 me plenty of tym..its really make me fil wierd.. u noe..i dun wan gib him any hope.. n he do noes dat...frm e startin of our frenshp..i min b4 i get 2 noe him..i did tell his fwen off..i juz can take him as my fwen..watev..cls fwen or wad..as long we r FRIENDS.. & dey do agree to my decision..but its not fair.
As tym goes by... he fell 4 me.. wen e fact i've told em dat i juz can take u as my fwen...he still awaits for me..u noe..thru out our frenship..lyk 1 dae i will open up to him n take him..but i noe i wun..its not EZ for me to replace him!! i still nid him!! i still love him as much as eva!!
i love him...saiful.. i nid u pwecious..erm...yeah..lyk ive told u..nobody can replace u in ma heart..dey dun stand a chances in one wae or another..dun chgne wud u? pls..dun..
Luf u..*muaCks*
It's
4:56 AM!
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
star lite,star bright
firSt star i see 2nite..
i wish i may
i wish i mite..
Haf e wish..
i wish 2nite....
may we b 2ghther till eternity no matter wad..
&
may my pwecious guided by an angel all e tym...
Luf u my dear...muacks3..
It's
4:37 AM!
Hey yat!!! waH!!! lme sak tk update!!! windu ko ar!! muack
hey....how tings haf bin goin ard? wel3...darl..we patched agn!! haha...i noe ure not suprise.!! dun gib dat pathetic luk!! arg! excuse mua..we r happy k!! 4 e better..muaacks3..syg dea..muackks3.. wel... ting btwn me n asyik does now goes as it seem i wished it wud be..juz 4get it..he said dis 2 me. it haf been fun & sweet memories w u..sadly faith we r not meant 2 b 2gther..lyk so farked up.aiya...nie dah bpe bulan sak..tkpa. tk heran.its ok..happier w saiful..do i? hahaha! lyk ya of coz!! triple a's!!! muaacks...
ok..my pwecious..yat..hey!! listen!!!! he changed..haha...changed as if in e beta.[our rshp].ya true.. neva c him sooo3 prihatin lyk dis b4..so..how ehk.. ala..u noe i noe..&!!!!! not 4getin he's physically changed 2!!!! goSh!!! havin kinda tough 2 craved e original saiful i noe!!! help3!!! dun weri!!! i can managed... let time take e place.. hm... miss him though..changed? cian dea..lyk duh!!! nobody is perfect u noe!!! get over w it owadi!!!
hm...4 now..our rshp good...not yet xtreme..we r gettin cls lyk we used 2 b so clse...ouh..i miss dos moment wen we r so romantic!! but now beta!!! 24/7 w him!!! gettin e bondin.. still nid 2 fce mre challenges n trial...yes we can make it.. till one dae we..aw...haha..let dis b our secrets!! blueK! luf him musy!! muaackxx3!! ya...we r gettin beta now..u noe..every breakups dat we've gone through..wen we r bck agn..wad i cn c is dat..we're more opened n closer..jus dat 4 dis tym round..wen we fite..[rarely fite.owaes me gibin him pblm] we dun break ourself up..as if u noe..gud sign isn't? haha..so proud of him,my pwecious!! mwwakkxX..BUT still i cant be 2 happy!! muz b prepared 4 e "downs" 2 u noe..u neva noe wen its gona strike! cant owaes b 2gther 4 e happy moments cant we? sud b der 4 him during e saddest n bitter moment..dat make us evn u noe..shh...dats my secret..
well...a lasting rshp need lots of trusting,patience n undsting..gosh my head is gettin giddy..argh.. but really we changed 4 e beta..no lies.. muacks3 my pwecious lips..gona go thru ups & downs 2gther w u huny!! der is still a long journey 4 us!! mwacckss3!! papa chayoh!!! huik2!! chayoh!! tgh semangat nie!!! hahaha..
p.S:
2 be loyal n honoured 2 haf u bck in my lyf swity..
muacksS3 my pwecious syed muhd saiful... :]
It's
4:04 AM!
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Yat!! okiEs..raNfuL..nk kate back blm..nk kate kn blm,dah..entah lah.. lol
hahakZ..okies tapi kite orite..OK! i read his bLog..
weIkz..so bloody seh.. i dun lyk dark2 color.. so full of saddness
n violent! (in my point of view la)
TaPi..although its the past.. mak ko..
name aku esar sak epul tarok!! SURIA.. yoh! lek lar..
aku kat sni pon tk kasi direct name sumre big2.. do I? lol.. aku tk tao.. lol
watever lar!! but pain abit jek.. tk byk.. loLxs.. kekek sak.. haha..
u!! u still my poem k sweethart!! suppose meant 4 u only!! not 4 any one else!!
ok..no hard feeling.. cite dah basi..
shh.. dun nag. Dun tink bout it..ar!! go awy go awy!! haha!! asyik! lolxs..
kuit sak!! go awy go awy!! lol..
ok la yat..pape.. im juz hoping n wishing 4 e best..
wad i pmse,i fullfill..
dun wan gve empty hopes n promises..
i hate syg ku yayat..
oh ya!! ku dah d GUY!!! he so damn cute!!
His name is firdaus.. kental sak name.. puki. tk aik sak aku..lol
FIrdaus..aGe: 3week.. lol! aku dpt adk sdare la!! haha.. tkmo suspend!! lol!! bluek!!
i scare u din i?? hehe.. bluek!!
jgn takot lar!! i still luf u dear.. my dear papa apol.. muacks..
hahahahakz...gtg.!!
tc everybody!! muaacks!!
oh ya! this sat sheeky budae..ar! g mampoz ar. benci ar! arGH!!
FATE konon!
It's
12:19 AM!
Monday, September 11, 2006
HeLo lalIng..
How r u?? war..yat..me n papa dah ok tao!! hehe!!! syg dea k! me n his cuzin po dah orite..tk mcm dulu....lolx...kenangan..
ok fun2... dun let other people's perspective be ur reality.. yeah!
IF I CANT I MUST!!
(ANTI-STEAD!!)
study?
GREAT!!
im so catching up wif my studdy!!
YEAH!!
(all thanks 2 anti-stead)
LOLxS..
fUN K!
ramai kenaLaN.. bebaS saK..
TaPi..
aKu ANTI-STEAD!!
CONFIRM!!
4 HIM & ME!!
YEAH!!
LUF ME,LUF PAPA!!
MUAcKS!! OUTz..
ME TIRED..
muaCks..
hOpe 2 be u Noe i NOe lar..
It's
11:47 PM!
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Yat...
u noe sumtink...e previous dae of my camp...1st nite...i cried....i duno y...i just cry... so sad as if sum1 as die..reali honestly...tears just flow down my cheek w/out any reasons...seems lyk i cried a few mths ago...y ehk....weird seh....aku nangis tanpe sebab...tapi rase sgt terlalu sedih... its my emotins controlling me over...lolxs...hope it wud not happen agen...welll gtg...its getting late...got stock check tmr....tC//..Luf u darL...muakCs... mimip indah..
It's
5:46 AM!
YAt!!!!i told u many tings haf hapen rite??? well indeed i m!!! u c!!! my hair.... ya allah!! mepek sak!!
ok! g kedai gunting...swee2...afta cutting i appy3... skali tgn aku mcm mak jande pgiauthor ku nyer fringe...ah ko! tk senonh sak!! mcm nonok!! lolXs... cpt lar grOW.... color beak!! da perang... hahahS....baekk...t anuh lgy.....t ari raye mari...nie rmbt ku dye merah.. lolXs.. buang tebiat! hahaha.....nk carik maut kap.a...lolXs...tkla...t raye leh ckp lar... lolXs.. color merah ehk...2 jam nyaie pengsan!! heahahakZ... tapi seroius sak... rambt aku tk senonoh sak.... nie laR! tgn mcm mak jande! hahga...tapi tgh growing2!! yeah peace!!! pRinCess Hour roCk!! muaKCs!!
aNTI STEAD!!!
Signing Off...Luf yar!!
It's
5:22 AM!
Miss eUU yat!!!!!omg!!!! yat!!! da lme sak aku tk dpt masok blog!!!! at last dpt!!! wuHoo!!!! appi doK!!! yeahu!!!
I miss eUU yat!!! muacKcs!!! im so happy!!!! yeah!!! lolX!! oKies2... got so many ting dat haf happen 2 me u noe yat!! omg...Sheeky??? hmh! kite dah breaK!!! argh!!
braTz!!! reaLLy daMn aSS braTz!!! i dun wan tok bout him niMre!
can't belief it!! just caN't!!
sad 2 sae dat fate we r not meant 2gader!!
argh!!
StupiD FFOOL!!
jgn salahkn takdir lar....ko pkir k yat.. if really he noe his fate..
den y he sound me stead? since he sae dat fate we r not meant 4 each other...
SInce he noe its "fated" where is his "fated" meant to be wife? does not make sense!
nk break break la...jgn slh kn F-A-T-E!!!
Fate5... as if u noe its fateD!!
Another dae is gone..im still all alone... haIXs... i wan
anti-stead ar yat!! loLxs...
Oh ya!! saiFul... (my endless lovE) ceh... lol..'bout him..dea pon dah break dgn huda...
hes in mel noW...hMm!! wanDer wad he is doinG nOW!! okies2...
we contact ech oTher... so wad.. i still miss & luf him..
He still miss & love me...aw!!! so sweEt!!
Lolxs....very swet khZ yat!! nk kat 2 thn tao ku knl dea!!!
its lyk damn long!! dea cute lar!! in his own way... lolXs..
yer...ku tao ku kutok2 dea dulu...p dat tym aku tgh benga kn...
phm2 lar... ;P
I WAN A N T I- S T E A D!!
iF I CAN'T I MUST!!!
reali yat...reali...many ting haf happen....tings starting 2 be in its way..
im getting focus 2 my study...didnt noe i eva get 5 disnt + 9 credits.. 4 my subject
3 A1 n 2 A2...how great is dat!! i miss my disticn! helo11 atleast aku still dpt 2 khz! lolX..
but i really miss getting in 3 positions in e whole level!! 1st in mly student aku dpt concer!!
yeahu/111 mus kip on improving!!!
IF I CAN'T I MUST!!
my studies kept improving afta i ended the BGR... back 2 square 1 wen i was in sec 1...
great isn't it 2 be a top student evey year w/out failed!!! ouh!!!
i miss dat soo much!!! truly muchy!!
IF I CAN'T I MUST!!
ANTI-STEAD!! till 19.. ceh! lolX..
kte tGk spe yg keNa... lolXxS..
tkMo ckp abiS.. ShH3... hehe..
Jus came bCk fRm caMp..tiRing u noe yat!! mak oi!! hitam sak aku! mcm ank keLing!!
argH!! aku tknk lar!! mtk ampon ar... i miss my fairness skin..
so white so soft...
lyk snow-white... lolXs.
aku sensetive ar yat... tkle ne matahari byk sgt..
t kulit aku pedih so much...pedih4 n perit..
bkn sunburn..jus pedih..very pedih!
puteri lilin... ahahKZ,,
It's
4:49 AM!
Miss eUU yat!!!!!omg!!!! yat!!! da lme sak aku tk dpt masok blog!!!! at last dpt!!! wuHoo!!!! appi doK!!! yeahu!!!
I miss eUU yat!!! muacKcs!!! im so happy!!!! yeah!!! lolX!! oKies2... got so many ting dat haf happen 2 me u noe yat!! omg...Sheeky??? hmh! kite dah breaK!!! argh!!
braTz!!! reaLLy daMn aSS braTz!!! i dun wan tok bout him niMre!
can't belief it!! just caN't!!
sad 2 sae dat fate we r not meant 2gader!!
argh!!
StupiD FFOOL!!
jgn salahkn takdir lar....ko pkir k yat.. if really he noe his fate..
den y he sound me stead? since he sae dat fate we r not meant 4 each other...
SInce he noe its "fated" where is his "fated" meant to be wife? does not make sense!
nk break break la...jgn slh kn F-A-T-E!!!
Fate5... as if u noe its fateD!!
Another dae is gone..im still all alone... haIXs... i wan
anti-stead ar yat!! loLxs...
Oh ya!! saiFul... (my endless lovE) ceh... lol..'bout him..dea pon dah break dgn huda...
hes in mel noW...hMm!! wanDer wad he is doinG nOW!! okies2...
we contact ech oTher... so wad.. i still miss & luf him..
He still miss & love me...aw!!! so sweEt!!
Lolxs....very swet khZ yat!! nk kat 2 thn tao ku knl dea!!!
its lyk damn long!! dea cute lar!! in his own way... lolXs..
yer...ku tao ku kutok2 dea dulu...p dat tym aku tgh benga kn...
phm2 lar... ;P
I WAN A N T I- S T E A D!!
iF I CAN'T I MUST!!!
reali yat...reali...many ting haf happen....tings starting 2 be in its way..
im getting focus 2 my study...didnt noe i eva get 5 disnt + 9 credits.. 4 my subject
3 A1 n 2 A2...how great is dat!! i miss my disticn! helo11 atleast aku still dpt 2 khz! lolX..
but i really miss getting in 3 positions in e whole level!! 1st in mly student aku dpt concer!!
yeahu/111 mus kip on improving!!!
IF I CAN'T I MUST!!
my studies kept improving afta i ended the BGR... back 2 square 1 wen i was in sec 1...
great isn't it 2 be a top student evey year w/out failed!!! ouh!!!
i miss dat soo much!!! truly muchy!!
IF I CAN'T I MUST!!
ANTI-STEAD!! till 19.. ceh! lolX..
kte tGk spe yg keNa... lolXxS..
tkMo ckp abiS.. ShH3... hehe..
Jus came bCk fRm caMp..tiRing u noe yat!! mak oi!! hitam sak aku! mcm ank keLing!!
argH!! aku tknk lar!! mtk ampon ar... i miss my fairness skin..
so white so soft...
lyk snow-white... lolXs.
aku sensetive ar yat... tkle ne matahari byk sgt..
t kulit aku pedih so much...pedih4 n perit..
bkn sunburn..jus pedih..very pedih!
puteri lilin... ahahKZ,,
It's
4:49 AM!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Dear yat...Yat....aku tk tao lar..naper tibe2 aku msg syful alek...per steam sak aku... pe lar motive aku ehk... eee yer.....aku gLr yat...aku gler... haiXxSs...aku tk tao lar... tapi syful tk dpt lupe kn aku...dea masi sygkn aku....heran lar....asl sak... yat...aku tkmo akitkn ati sper2... aku syg shiki.. aLOt!!!!! tapi syful?? akU syg dea jgk... Tapi...ar... u noe i noe lar... aku btol2 sygkn shiki... tknk sak break dgn dea pasal ne semue...aku tkmo...tapi dea.. shiki?? hm... jarang contact aku.. ak phm lar dea bZ...tapi tkkn tkd mase utk aku kot..hm!!! aku harap dea tk lpe aku sUa!! tetap sygkn aku evN moRe deN eVa!! i luf him sak... haiSxs...Syful... asl lar kite break... lao tk... dah 7bulan kiter bersme... psl adk angkat?
Hey...aku tk ingt2 seh yat...dea ckp dgn aku, dea n bitch 2 syg sbgai abg dgn adk... tutup.. dorg stead!! kimek!! tkle accecpt sak...i sud haf trst maself earlier.... haisXs... heraN.. jeleS aku dgn lilik...Lpas aku break,d aku n lilik stead? tkkn... unlyk hIm... haiXs.. aku tk tao ar yat... shiKi... hehe...aku syGg dea...muacKsxX5.. I MISS HIM ALOT5!! (i.i) wana mit hIm... blr sak dea free... asyik bz jek keblkgan nie...haixs...undastd..undastood lar... phm2 jek... how deep is his love 4 mE?? hm....as deep i love hiM... as deep as it cud bE...goNa treaSure my honey babyboi..
WEll...syful...i used 2 sae dis 2 u... "If luving u is a cRIme,i rather be a prisoner.." Now i gussed its 4 u 2 sae 2 me....terbalek sak...per yg aku rase dulu,dea tgh melaluinyer... Dilemma... ouh... wad a pity!!! hurting k!! u can really fil lyk ur haRt is broken into small tiny pieces den kene sMacSH...piaNG....ffuh!! saket dokZ...aku tknk lalui nyer skali lgy... taubat yada aku tknk... aku nk setie pde 1 jek... ya allah!! kekal ker aku dgn shiki....? tiap ari syg......muacksS.... syg abG..
ok ler yat...aku ouTz yer syg...skg aku kat katong..bkn kat rmh...so tym pon dabis...so tc!! luf ya muchi2!! muacK5!! doa2 kn aku n shiki kekal yer!! lets kIp on wishing & praying!!! mUuacKS!!
It's
10:58 PM!
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Dear Yayat,Dalam rasenyer aku tk g blog kn...well aku bz lar syg...hm...aku rindu dea yat...
siak ar....aku syg kat dea sgt...syg sgt....hm...doa2 lar hubungan kte kekal syg oi..
i miss him...well...i gtg..luf ya!! muacKS!!
It's
12:32 AM!
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It's
12:04 AM!
